And that's the end of that.

Well... I've done something that I've been saying I was going to do for the past, like, two years. You will find that my notes on how Love & Tears was going to end are now available.

I also tweaked the appearance of that story page, and while I of course love the way it turned out, I'm a little disappointed, as that's close to the look I was aiming for on a different story, so now I'll have to improvise with the other one. Grr.

Anyway, that's really all that I have to add here, formally.

Here's a little dose of excitement for you: I am about halfway through a new chapter of Build My World! I know! This section ended on a pretty good closing spot, and I'm half tempted to just say this is a full chapter, but it only covers one event and it's a dismal one, not to mention only being about half the length of all my other chapters. I threw together maybe a paragraph or two on TA: Selfish, but, eh. No real hope on that one just yet. Also, I have also started a new project, it is a work of complete and total fiction, no fanfic whatsoever. I really love the story line and the particularly the plot twist. Finished the first chapter and a portion of the second. Like the way it's coming together. Now it's just a matter of staying focused on it.

Right now I have a lot of time to get work done, as my department at work is changing and I literally have no work to do. It's very nice not to have any accounts to follow up on, and it's awesome to spend eight hours getting paid to write and to do some reading. I also have three people at work that I've told all about the story, and they're there to pester me about it. The three of them proofread the first chapter for me, and they all found a different typo, which made me laugh. Anyway... enjoy my new year's gift of the Love & Tears notes, and continued to stay tuned for me. 

♥

Trying to get it back...

So I have made the official decision to revamp everything. And I mean EVERYTHING. Each story page is getting a new layout, maybe even a new color scheme.

  I will be enlisting the help of Veronica to redo the main story images. I've got some ideas sketched up already of what the pages are going to look like, next step is figuring out what I want the images to look like.

In the meantime, you can all thank Mrs. Natalia Jordan for making me get off my butt and make some changes to the site. Don't think I forgot, Mrs. Jordan!

It's not much, but it's a little something. I know it's not original, Sims Christmas redux. But it is the new permanent layout screen. I expect it will be much easier to maintain changing it up on a more regular basis like this. I may deviate from time to time, but this is where I expect it to stay for awhile.

What IS new with this update: Check out the story list page. Organized it a little differently. Also, each short story now has a little bit of a new look.

The about page links back to the Facebook page, check out some new pictures I posted. Let me know if the link doesn't work.

Now, it's 5:21am and I should probably go to sleep. Instead, I'm going to re-watch the Walking Dead finale and then probably an episode of Prison Break. I'm re-watching the last season, because I know I missed a lot of stuff last time.

Have a great holiday!

It never gets any easier...

So... of course there's really not a whole lot of new info to tell you.
No, I haven't finished a new layout, no I don't have anything new written.

My main personal blog can now be found: Melissa: half the sugar twice the spice
And you can find my articles and all kind of social commentary here: Crazy-ass World // Melissa Limasse

Other than that, the majority of my fiction writing is now focused on at: Riverside, and based on my Popmundo experience.

However, I have been thinking about what kind of motivation I need to get to work. The one thing that occurred to me is revamping Build My World so that the beginning takes place after JC has already gone solo, and possibly changing Malinda and Laurel to football fans, since the hockey thing is already in Together Again.

Then, I think I'm going to be realistic and admit to myself that side projects like Zachary & Maple and Redemption will not be finished. Same with Love & Tears. It's over. The fat lady has been singing for years. When I have the chance, I will scan my notes, so that I can at least share with the world where it was supposed to go.

I think that's really all I have for now. Just those thought that have been trolling about in my head. In the meantime, enjoy my personal drama.

Relocation...

So I've decided to keep this blog sinple, with only Reckless Abandon - related information.

But, you can find my personal blog here:
http://malibu37.wordpress.com/

Bitchy

I think I might need to start taking my life in a different direction. Just when I thought things were starting to settle in, they go all ridiculous. Seriously. Is it too much to ask just have all the ducks in a row for even a little bit?

It must be... because...

Things are finally - finally - going extremely well for me in my love life. I've met someone who actually makes me happy. When funny things happen to me, or around me, he's the first person I want to tell. When something shitty happens to me, he's the person I run to to make it go away. Someone asked me if I could picture the rest of my life with him. Well, my jaded ass can't even picture the rest of my day with anyone, let alone the rest of my life. But the difference is, I want to see him every day. And you know me and my normal lack of desire to see a guy ever day. If I can't see him, I at least want to talk to him. That's a really big deal to me. I'm completely comfortable and myself around him, and he's easily one of my best friends. It's great.

So of course, since that is going so well, everything else, inexplicably must fall apart. The Cult, which has been good to me for over a year, has turned on me with a vengeance. In the last week alone, everything I do is called into question, to the extent of both implied and actual discipline. Are you freaking kidding me right now? I can't even breathe without it somehow going against the rules. It all seems to have started when I was seen having a personal conversation with someone much higher up on the food chain than myself. I was simply being a thoughtful human being and asking after this person's spouse and children. Because this person has mentioned the aforementioned spouse and children in prior gatherings, I was just enquiring as to their well-being. Apparently this is a venial sin, because I was told that I was not be bothering such important people. I mean that, literally. "They are busy people, they have planes to catch." Wow. Okay. This has now led to my being picked apart for greater offenses. So, in the past week I've been accused of mortal sin after mortal sin.

Well guess what? If I feel I need to move on, I will move on. I don't want to. I have a history of longevity, my goal is to stick around until I find my own niche there, but if the intent is to close the walls so tightly around me that my only option is to escape, I'll do it.

Anyway, that being said. I'm exhausted. I have a bottle of Moscato that I may delve into, and some cherry vodka that I may mix with Sierra Mist. I'm going to spend the next 45-60 seconds deciding which one will tast better, and enjoy it while watching Ramona & Beezus. If it sucks, I'm going to be even more pissed off.

On second thought, in case it does suck, I'll save it for another day. Instead I will entertain myself with That 70's Show reruns.

Good night.

Completely insignificant, but every little bit helps... right?

So, while I haven't written anything about anything in quite some time... I thought I would get back into Build My World for a little bit, but then as it turns out, I chose to take this next chapter in a slightly different direction than the original plan. Also, I found a lot of my notes where I'd written out whole scenes and just didn't know what to do with them yet... well, now I know what I can do with them. Turns out there's a middle section that I didn't expect until at least 4 chapters out from this point, but can easily come up in the next one or two. Woo! At least I have a plan. That's really all that matters.

I'm changing a lot of the songs on the music player... trying to give more of a feel of what I actually listen to, versus songs I think are cool for a few weeks. I think once I update that, a new layout will follow, which will entice me to work a little harder on the writing.

Also, for those of you who caught the status update on the Reckless Abandon facebook page, there is some new inspiration in my life. That's right, Melissa has herself a new man. And not just any man. One that she can actually refer to as "my boyfriend" and not choke on the words as they come out. We had the talk on what a huge commitmentphobe I am, but even as I explained my tendency to run away, I knew that I probably wouldn't. I really like him. I smile when I say his name. It's been just about a month so far, and I'm loving every second of it.

The key is now to see how that will translate into JC's actions. Or Isaac's. Or... cliffhanger alert, maybe a different character?

For now I'm off to finish editing music, then if the sun holds up, beach bumming it all day. Enjoy the rest of your weekends!

Important Women's Health Issue

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* Do you have feelings of inadequacy?
* Do you suffer from shyness?
* Do you sometimes wish you were more assertive?
* Do you suffer exhaustion from the day to day grind?

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Shyness and awkwardness will be a thing of the past and you will discover many talents you never knew you had. Stop hiding and start living, with Margaritas.

Margaritas may not be right for everyone. Women who are pregnant or nursing should not use Margaritas. However, women who wouldn't mind nursing or becoming pregnant are encouraged to try it.

Side effects may include:
- Dizziness
- Nausea
- Vomiting
- Incarceration
- Erotic lustfulness
- Loss of motor control
- Loss of clothing
- Loss of money
- Table dancing
- Headache
- Dehydration
- Dry mouth
- And a desire to sing Karaoke

WARNINGS:
* The consumption of Margaritas may make you think you are whispering when you are not.
* The consumption of Margaritas may cause you to tell your friends over and over again that you love them.
* The consumption of Margaritas may cause you to think you can sing.
* The consumption of Margaritas may make you think you can logically converse with members of the opposite sex without spitting.

.... and I don't wanna swim

Rules:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 20 friends, including me
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!






IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY?' YOU SAY?
Morning Moon (Tragically Hip)


HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Antisaint (Chevelle)


WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Locked in the Trunk of a Car (Tragically Hip) HAHAHA!


HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Do You Wanna Touch Me (Joan Jett)


WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Hollywood Dream (The Runaways)


WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Monkey Wrench (Foo Fighters)


WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Camaro (Kings of Leon)


WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
If You're Wondering if I want You To, I Want You To (Weezer)


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Apple Blossom (The White Stripes)


WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Overdrive (Foo Fighters)


WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Dazed & Confused (Led Zeppelin)


WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Pardon Me (Incubus)


WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
I Love Rock & Roll (Joan Jett) Well, that's a given.


WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Who Invited You (The Donnas)


WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Ain't No Rest For the Wicked (Cage the Elephant)


WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Comfortably Numb (Pink Floyd)


WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Another Know It All (Chevelle) Oh, that's no secret


WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
What Do You Want From Me? (Pink Floyd) That made me laugh.


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
All You Ever Wanted (The Black Keys) Awww


WHAT DOES YOUR LOVE THINK ABOUT YOU?
Keep Me (The Black Keys)


WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
New Orleans is Sinking (Tragically Hip)





I guess it's pretty obvious the bands from which I possess the most music.

"She knew just what I needed. Practice boobs."

How much am I in love with the fact that Daria is on for 3 or 4 hours straight every morning? And that it's out on DVD? I will be purchasing that, asap.
By the way, did you know that the woman who did the voice of Jane also did Quinn and Mrs. Morgendorffer?

I'm pretending to be productive today, when it's really not happening. It's certainly not helping that at 5:49am I can't even force myself to fall asleep. There's a slight possibility that the constant intake of chicken wing dip I keep gorging on has a mild effect on it. I'm addicted. Went through an entire box of Triscuits today. And one yesterday. *hangs head in shame*

So last night involved a trip to the Hard Rock Cafe to see Jeremy Hoyle Band/Strictly Hip, whoever they were performing as. It was great, definitely a fantastic place for a show. Josepp and myself then wandered around the Falls so I could sober up to drive home. That was an interesting adventure. There was streaking and humping.

Not by us.

We were witnesses.

There was, however, urinating, not to mention walking right in the middle of the riverbed. That part was very cool. I don't think I've ever seen Three Sisters Islands, and in the dark, they're twice as cool. Of course, the misty air did nothing for my hair, so I guess it's a good thing it was a) dark and were were b) headed home.

I would really like to purchase the turtle shaped building, however. Great place for parties!

My eyelids are starting to feel a bit weighty, so maybe it's time to lay down.

I love how hilarious this show is.
"Quinn is just so deep, she thinks we would say something's cute when it's not cute which we wouldn't."

I'm getting a little tired of the preview for Degrassi playing during every commercial break. I realize they only advertise other TeenNick shows, as well as ProActiv and all those lame "find your true love, text ---- to #####" and "free ringtones, text #### with the song title", and all those things cost $19.99 a month, but can we show previews for anything else? I feel like I've already watched it at this point.

I do want one of these vacuum bag things though. Of course, I would get carried away and store EVERYTHING every day with them. I could probably get rid of both dressers, just keep everything in the closet, and have so much more room.

Alright... It's time to pretend to sleep. I'm still trying to get myself on a normal sleep schedule. Normal for me, anyway. Sleep from 3-9, or even 4-10 would be perfect. But this 8-3 thing I've had going on is really not working for me.
Ciao!

Well that’s a pathetic thought…

So I’m watching Prom Night for maybe the 5th time in 3 days, which, by the way, is by far the worst movie I’ve ever seen. But, when it comes right down to it, around 4 am there aren’t many other options. Theoretically, I could watch all the stuff that’s piling up on my DVR, but most of it is something I actually want to pay attention to, and the appeal to Prom Night is that it can just play in the background without my paying it any attention, and it’s still just as good as if I were really watching it.

Is it possible to become dependent on vitamins? I recently started taking Women’s One a Day, and I haven’t taken vitamins since my Flintstone Days of like 1987 or something, and I forgot to take them the past couple days, and I feel like hell. I was so run-down today that I felt a combo of hungover, drunk, sick, and something else. I kept spacing out when I was talking to customers, completely lost track of my thoughts constantly. Thank God I had my mentee to repeat to me what the customer just said and what I was even talking about. It was bad. So… is it possible that while I was bombarding my system with over 650% of my daily intake of Vitamin B each day and then suddenly not getting any Vitamin B at all, it caused me to crash? Not to mention the 100% of folic acid, Vitamin C, and Iron, and 200% of D. God knows it’s not like I eat right, and again, haven’t taken vitamins in some 20 years, so maybe for these two and a half weeks of suddenly pumping my system back up got me to a healthy level, and then it was like yanking the rug out from under my feet? I think it’s time for me to go on my 3-day V-fusion juice diet. Combine that and the One-A-Day, to get all those other necessary nutrients, and I’ll be awesome. It’s funny, because the first time I did the juice diet, on the first day I could have committed murder for some carbs or some meat. Day 2 was a little tricky. But on Day 3, I felt so good that I probably could have gone for a whole month on just the juice. Definitely need to try that again.

Now I’m getting hungry spending all this time talking about not eating, ugh.

I could really go for some cookie dough or something right now.

And I’m moving on to watch Parenthood now. That’s something I can have running in the background and still follow. Even though I still feel like it’s just a revamp of Gilmore Girls.

So I’ve been giving some thought to my constant Erik dilemma, and surprise surprise, I find myself missing him constantly. I can’t keep doing this to myself. It makes me sick to my stomach. I need to meet someone new – ASAP – in whom I find something appealing. I don’t necessarily believe in that whole bullshit of you never get over someone until you find someone else, because you can find yourself missing an ex from like, 4 relationships ago, so clearly finding someone else didn’t work, and frankly,. It’s unhealthy to even think that you spend your entire life being consumed with either being with someone or missing someone. It’s disgusting. But I definitely need a distraction. Maybe that’s the problem in the first place, that the whole experience with Erik was never healthy. Okay that’s a lie, because on one hand, it was. He was definitely the only one I ever felt completely okay talking to about the whole baby thing, and he always knew what to say. I don’t know what wrong with me. Maybe it’s just because he’s finally becoming the man I always knew he had it in him to be, so he’s become that much more attractive to me? Grr. I need to move.

I’ve switched to the History Channel special, America: The Story of Us, which is cool. This is the US History stuff that I love, and always kicked ass at in school, everything from 1600 to about 1900. After that, I always fuck it up or have no interest. Especially from, say, 1930 on. That stuff doesn’t feel like history to me, mostly because I’ve spent the past 11 years surrounded by people who were alive then. But the revolutionary era, fascinates me. That, and everything leading up to the Civil War. Then those next 40-50 years or so are sort of interesting to me, but not as cool as the events leading up to it. Anyway, the series is sponsored by Bank of America, and they make sure to advertise it constantly. There was a brief mention about the founding of Bank of Massachusetts - by the way, I need to thank Paul Revere and John Hancock for my job – and then it went on to say something in passing about how it’s now Bank of America. Furthermore, at every commercial break, it goes through this whole history of the bank. It’s starting to get really old. Oh, and funny story, I called a guy today who lives like 6 doors down and across the street from my brother. Talk about a small world. It was kind of cool though. Need to get out there and visit soon.

The guy playing John Rolfe in this series is pretty hot. Haha. Yeah, I said it. And Christian Bale played him in [i]The New World[/i], another hottie (ironic side note: Christian Bale did the voice of a character in Disney’s Pocahontas, only to go on to play the man who marries here. Also, I’m still calling dibs on that man, since I fell in lurve with him back in something like ’91 when he sang and danced in Newsies. :) Hmm… maybe that’s a DVD to put in next), so I’m going on a limb here and saying that John Rolfe may be the hottest man in history. I wouldn’t kick Andrew Jackson out of bed either, but that’s more due to his personality. Did you know that he’s the reason the Democratic party is represented by the donkey? His opposers, back when he was running for political office, called him a jackass, and he retaliated by adopting the symbol. That’s my kind of guy.

Why am I talking about sexing up historical figures? Christ I need to go to bed.

But alas, I cannot for at least another hour or so. I need to check on my label’s record sales in Popmundo. Yes, I said Popmundo. It’s become a bit of a priority as of late. Trying to plan a world tour for 3 different bands is a bitch. Especially when half of the clubs don’t want to invite one of the bands because they don’t play the same genre of music. This is why I wanted to work with a chain that had clubs in all the cities, but alas, the guy we used on the last tour sold off all his clubs.

I keep seeing all these great commercials for cruises, and they’re making me crazy. I want to go on another cruise, like, this weekend. Tomorrow, even. That was the best vacation of my life. I need to be in the ocean as soon as humanly possible. Lake Erie, in all its brown and gray glory, is just not doing it for me anymore. I need to be in the water, and just stay there all day. I’m frantic about it. But of course, in a time span of 5 months, I have 3 different groups of people wanting to go on 3 different vacations. Charlene’s trying to plan a cruise, Liz wants to go to Thailand, and my extended family is trying to go to Turks & Caicos.

And a quick update on something I've been working on for the past hour... I have a date Friday evening or Saturday afternoon :)

I’ve got to stop staying up so late. I think I’ll turn in now. Ciao!