Well that’s a pathetic thought…

So I’m watching Prom Night for maybe the 5th time in 3 days, which, by the way, is by far the worst movie I’ve ever seen. But, when it comes right down to it, around 4 am there aren’t many other options. Theoretically, I could watch all the stuff that’s piling up on my DVR, but most of it is something I actually want to pay attention to, and the appeal to Prom Night is that it can just play in the background without my paying it any attention, and it’s still just as good as if I were really watching it.

Is it possible to become dependent on vitamins? I recently started taking Women’s One a Day, and I haven’t taken vitamins since my Flintstone Days of like 1987 or something, and I forgot to take them the past couple days, and I feel like hell. I was so run-down today that I felt a combo of hungover, drunk, sick, and something else. I kept spacing out when I was talking to customers, completely lost track of my thoughts constantly. Thank God I had my mentee to repeat to me what the customer just said and what I was even talking about. It was bad. So… is it possible that while I was bombarding my system with over 650% of my daily intake of Vitamin B each day and then suddenly not getting any Vitamin B at all, it caused me to crash? Not to mention the 100% of folic acid, Vitamin C, and Iron, and 200% of D. God knows it’s not like I eat right, and again, haven’t taken vitamins in some 20 years, so maybe for these two and a half weeks of suddenly pumping my system back up got me to a healthy level, and then it was like yanking the rug out from under my feet? I think it’s time for me to go on my 3-day V-fusion juice diet. Combine that and the One-A-Day, to get all those other necessary nutrients, and I’ll be awesome. It’s funny, because the first time I did the juice diet, on the first day I could have committed murder for some carbs or some meat. Day 2 was a little tricky. But on Day 3, I felt so good that I probably could have gone for a whole month on just the juice. Definitely need to try that again.

Now I’m getting hungry spending all this time talking about not eating, ugh.

I could really go for some cookie dough or something right now.

And I’m moving on to watch Parenthood now. That’s something I can have running in the background and still follow. Even though I still feel like it’s just a revamp of Gilmore Girls.

So I’ve been giving some thought to my constant Erik dilemma, and surprise surprise, I find myself missing him constantly. I can’t keep doing this to myself. It makes me sick to my stomach. I need to meet someone new – ASAP – in whom I find something appealing. I don’t necessarily believe in that whole bullshit of you never get over someone until you find someone else, because you can find yourself missing an ex from like, 4 relationships ago, so clearly finding someone else didn’t work, and frankly,. It’s unhealthy to even think that you spend your entire life being consumed with either being with someone or missing someone. It’s disgusting. But I definitely need a distraction. Maybe that’s the problem in the first place, that the whole experience with Erik was never healthy. Okay that’s a lie, because on one hand, it was. He was definitely the only one I ever felt completely okay talking to about the whole baby thing, and he always knew what to say. I don’t know what wrong with me. Maybe it’s just because he’s finally becoming the man I always knew he had it in him to be, so he’s become that much more attractive to me? Grr. I need to move.

I’ve switched to the History Channel special, America: The Story of Us, which is cool. This is the US History stuff that I love, and always kicked ass at in school, everything from 1600 to about 1900. After that, I always fuck it up or have no interest. Especially from, say, 1930 on. That stuff doesn’t feel like history to me, mostly because I’ve spent the past 11 years surrounded by people who were alive then. But the revolutionary era, fascinates me. That, and everything leading up to the Civil War. Then those next 40-50 years or so are sort of interesting to me, but not as cool as the events leading up to it. Anyway, the series is sponsored by Bank of America, and they make sure to advertise it constantly. There was a brief mention about the founding of Bank of Massachusetts - by the way, I need to thank Paul Revere and John Hancock for my job – and then it went on to say something in passing about how it’s now Bank of America. Furthermore, at every commercial break, it goes through this whole history of the bank. It’s starting to get really old. Oh, and funny story, I called a guy today who lives like 6 doors down and across the street from my brother. Talk about a small world. It was kind of cool though. Need to get out there and visit soon.

The guy playing John Rolfe in this series is pretty hot. Haha. Yeah, I said it. And Christian Bale played him in [i]The New World[/i], another hottie (ironic side note: Christian Bale did the voice of a character in Disney’s Pocahontas, only to go on to play the man who marries here. Also, I’m still calling dibs on that man, since I fell in lurve with him back in something like ’91 when he sang and danced in Newsies. :) Hmm… maybe that’s a DVD to put in next), so I’m going on a limb here and saying that John Rolfe may be the hottest man in history. I wouldn’t kick Andrew Jackson out of bed either, but that’s more due to his personality. Did you know that he’s the reason the Democratic party is represented by the donkey? His opposers, back when he was running for political office, called him a jackass, and he retaliated by adopting the symbol. That’s my kind of guy.

Why am I talking about sexing up historical figures? Christ I need to go to bed.

But alas, I cannot for at least another hour or so. I need to check on my label’s record sales in Popmundo. Yes, I said Popmundo. It’s become a bit of a priority as of late. Trying to plan a world tour for 3 different bands is a bitch. Especially when half of the clubs don’t want to invite one of the bands because they don’t play the same genre of music. This is why I wanted to work with a chain that had clubs in all the cities, but alas, the guy we used on the last tour sold off all his clubs.

I keep seeing all these great commercials for cruises, and they’re making me crazy. I want to go on another cruise, like, this weekend. Tomorrow, even. That was the best vacation of my life. I need to be in the ocean as soon as humanly possible. Lake Erie, in all its brown and gray glory, is just not doing it for me anymore. I need to be in the water, and just stay there all day. I’m frantic about it. But of course, in a time span of 5 months, I have 3 different groups of people wanting to go on 3 different vacations. Charlene’s trying to plan a cruise, Liz wants to go to Thailand, and my extended family is trying to go to Turks & Caicos.

And a quick update on something I've been working on for the past hour... I have a date Friday evening or Saturday afternoon :)

I’ve got to stop staying up so late. I think I’ll turn in now. Ciao!